04 December 2018
it's the morning after a night when baby needed me skin to skin, heart to heart, inside every hour. we have had more of these than not lately, and i am sleepy, of course i am, but i am happy. i am so happy. it is all so unbelievable to me: that i can be what he needs, that my body can nourish his, that my nearness is the sun in his sky. i thank god for sleepless nights. i remember (i could not forget, i would not want to) when i spent other, long ago now, nights sleepless and tangled in thoughts that ached: that such nights and mornings as these might never be mine. and yet. here they are. here they are. and my stream of consciousness, my kite string of heartbeats, my tides of breaths, all move to the same pulse: thank you and thank you and thank you.
Labels: motherhood, the marrow of life
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your love is so wonderful, and so inspiring.ReplyDelete
louise, you always leave me the kindest notes that endlessly lift my spirit. thank you, thank you!Delete
In tears this is not only beautiful but so close to my heart Bc I sometimes have those sleepless nights lying awake still hoping one day... ❤️ReplyDelete
kat, my heart is ever hoping and believing right alongside yours. truly.Delete
thank you for each and every beautiful note you send my way! you are such an encouragement to me!